I should’ve died when I was supposed too. It was a sign that I shouldn’t be born but no. They had to fucking save my life, and let me live a life in hell. I can’t do anything right and I probably won’t ever be able to do anything right. Fuck my life. I just hurt the ones I love and that’s all there is too it. Can’t ever do anything better than that. Why do I even try…
I wish that I never gave you the flowers and the card you gave me back to you.. Every time I think about them I want to cry and I get sick to my stomach.. Fuck my life :’( 3
I’m alone. And I hate being alone.. So much, to the point where I have a mental breakdown and ball my eyes out… Fml
I don’t want to lose him.. Not again.. I can’t..
I say I love you so much because I never know if one day one of us will end up in the hospital and I want your last feeling to be me loving you.
I fucked really good this time. I know I can’t change anything I did, all I can do is accept that you’re most likely gonna leave me which is understandable and I’m sorry about everything I’ve done but I would never do you wrong in anyway. I know sorry doesn’t cut it but I’m saying sorry with everything in me. I never meant for anything like this to ever happen and if you have to leave me you can, I just want you to know that I’ll never stop loving you no matter what and I’ll always be here for you until the day we both die.. I’m so sorry Jesse.. I love you so much and that love will only grow stronger….